It seems like everyone around me has all these feelings, good and bad, and all these connections to other people like deep romances or best friendships and there are ups and downs and sometimes they feel deep, penetrating sadness while other times they’re ecstatically joyful and maybe sometimes nervous and anxious about something new that’s happening, like a new relationship, and I’m just sitting here, perpetually unfeeling, and no one wants me. As a girlfriend, a best friend, fuck buddy, employee, anything it may be, I am unwanted.
It kind of sucks to really be unwanted by people. Makes you feel terrifyingly alone and sick of existing for little reason other than your own personal goals and dreams.
